Thursday, July 22, 2010

New Music

I want to hear some new music but I haven't been to a bar or club recently, the radio doesn't necessarily play what I would put in my mp3 player, and I am not in contact with anyone who is in the know about new music. Its not the most efficient way to find new music but it looks like i m going to have to go to myspace music and search for new music. Its kind of a pain but finally having new music is worth it.

I have had a lot of problems in the past that I have blogged about. I think that the most important thing to realize is that I had to have trusted the wrong person at some point in the past for much of it to happen. For anyone in a position to do so, it would be wise for you to look at my situation, figure out who I never should have trusted, and steer clear of them (if it can happen to me it can happen to you: Don't delude yourself into thinking that they become trustworthy the moment they are dealing with someone other than me). The saddest thing about it is that my "open-mindedness" probably played a role in my circumstances. "I used to be too open minded/ open to different types of people" sounds like the Worst lesson to ever learn, but who can tell me otherwise at this point? The funny thing is that being 25% as open minded as I used to be still makes me more open-minded than most...

I encounter people with vastly differernty opinions than I am accustomed to hearing/ my opinions. I guess that that is normal. I don't think that the weird thing is encountering vastly different opinions. I think that the unusual thing is constant exposure to it: At my age most people have tended toward people who agree with them a lot more. If you ever have to start over that could chang though: If you ever have to start over from the bottom you encounter a lot of ideas that you are not used to as you work your way up (if you are fortunate enough to be able to head upwards.)

This is interesting. Everyone has had a conversation with someone where someone is talking about how they don't feel that they fit, they don't think that people like them, they try hard to fit in but it doesnt work etc. The other person usually says something to the effect of: Thats not true, I have never heard anyone say anything bad about you, people like you etc. (This usually isn't far from the truth). Recently I heard that sort of conversation: someone is talking about how they don't feel that they fit, they don't think that people like them, they try hard to fit in but it doesnt work etc. This the guy responded by saying "You're Noid!" That was quite possibly the most severe thing that I have ever heard...

Thursday, July 15, 2010

7/15/2010

My thoughts about Michigan are well known: I never want to be there in the future and I never want to be invited there. I don't really want to have it mentioned. Sometimes people don't drop the issue and its very unsettling to me. Its like: are you planning to kidnap me and force me to be in MI? you better drop the issue!

As much as I hear about it recently it seems that half that population has tried to move to California. Someone said that MI might be the place to be if everyone from there is moving here. I don't know about that!!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Highlights of The Past year and other ideas

My last year wasn't the sort of thing that I aim for but some interesting things happened...

Earlier this year, someone was moving out of a house that I lived in under less than favorable circumstances. As the guy who was moving out was walking out of the door with his last box of clothes he stopped, looked at the guy who was standing by the door and said, "You crazy out your mind!!" Then he walked out of the door. The guy who was standing by the door could have reacted many different ways but he reacted with a facial expression that suggested that he was thinking "I think he thinks I'm crazy..." That had nothing to do with me but I thought that it was funny because it was Classic example of Equality in action...


I remember when I first moved into the shelter where I lived for a few months. A guy who was there patted someone on the shoulder and wanted to talk to him bout something. The other person pushed his hand away and yelled "Get the f*** away from me, man!!" I thought, "Man, that guy is mean!" After being there for a while i came to understand that he probably wasnt overreacting...

Its interesting how we underestimate how much goes on in a person's life because most of our concept of a person is what that person does when we can see what they are doing. I was sitting at the table one day eating. A guy who I lived with walked in and said hello as he entered the front door. The next time I saw him he was entering the same door and I was sitting in the exact same spot eating. I knew what he was going to say. He said "I walked in earlier and you were sitting there eating a big plate, then i came back and you were sitting there eating..." I thought of explaining to him that I had left the house, took care of some business, worked out, and a lot of other things since he last saw me, and that i only had 2 meals that day. Instead, I just sort of lowered my head in resignation, though...

I listen to what everyone says and I respect people as a general rule unless they do somethign that causes me to think otherwise. I definitely have "respect of person" though. I don't care about every person's opinion about everything. Occasionally it truly comes down to "Who are you that I should give a crap about your opinion about this particular issue?!"

Everyone has done this at some point, but I try not to remind people about how they don't know me especially well. Occasionally, it has to be said. I avoid saying it because I think that its a serious argument if a person ever says that to someone who has too much to say about them. No matter how civil you are about saying it, its a serious argument. Have you ever said "I don't know you like that" to anyone then been close friends with them ever?? Never!

There is more of a fascination with the pecking order where I am now than anything I have ever seen. People here truly know who they are relative to anyone else more than anything that I have seen before. Its an interesting idea to "buy into" past a certain extent. I can see how it could lead to more racism: If a person doesn' see enough diversity where they are and they have that mentality it could easily lend itself to racism.

There are arguments that you can see coming a mile away. There are arguments that just happen. Therer are arguments where you say "Oh, come on! Do we really need to argue about this?" I am easily "weirded/ sketched out" by arguments that are Absolutely unprovoked. I will always look at you skeptically if that happens: Especially if it happens more than once.

Everyone has to coexist with people who are not like them in this universe. They may or may not be next door but these people are certainly out there somewhere. Not everyone is okay with the fact that people who are different than them exist regardless of whether they encounter tham or not. Everyone doesn't have to get along with me, but if you know anything about my personality I am a good guy to be able to "co-exist" with. If you can't co-exist with a guy like me there must never be any peace in your life...

I am not a big fan of the phrase "whatever you want to do." It can mean "You have the option to do whatever you want to." It could also mean "Do you want to fight me." People often say it to me in a conext where it could be taken either way...