Highlights of The Past year and other ideas

My last year wasn't the sort of thing that I aim for but some interesting things happened...

Earlier this year, someone was moving out of a house that I lived in under less than favorable circumstances. As the guy who was moving out was walking out of the door with his last box of clothes he stopped, looked at the guy who was standing by the door and said, "You crazy out your mind!!" Then he walked out of the door. The guy who was standing by the door could have reacted many different ways but he reacted with a facial expression that suggested that he was thinking "I think he thinks I'm crazy..." That had nothing to do with me but I thought that it was funny because it was Classic example of Equality in action...


I remember when I first moved into the shelter where I lived for a few months. A guy who was there patted someone on the shoulder and wanted to talk to him bout something. The other person pushed his hand away and yelled "Get the f*** away from me, man!!" I thought, "Man, that guy is mean!" After being there for a while i came to understand that he probably wasnt overreacting...

Its interesting how we underestimate how much goes on in a person's life because most of our concept of a person is what that person does when we can see what they are doing. I was sitting at the table one day eating. A guy who I lived with walked in and said hello as he entered the front door. The next time I saw him he was entering the same door and I was sitting in the exact same spot eating. I knew what he was going to say. He said "I walked in earlier and you were sitting there eating a big plate, then i came back and you were sitting there eating..." I thought of explaining to him that I had left the house, took care of some business, worked out, and a lot of other things since he last saw me, and that i only had 2 meals that day. Instead, I just sort of lowered my head in resignation, though...

I listen to what everyone says and I respect people as a general rule unless they do somethign that causes me to think otherwise. I definitely have "respect of person" though. I don't care about every person's opinion about everything. Occasionally it truly comes down to "Who are you that I should give a crap about your opinion about this particular issue?!"

Everyone has done this at some point, but I try not to remind people about how they don't know me especially well. Occasionally, it has to be said. I avoid saying it because I think that its a serious argument if a person ever says that to someone who has too much to say about them. No matter how civil you are about saying it, its a serious argument. Have you ever said "I don't know you like that" to anyone then been close friends with them ever?? Never!

There is more of a fascination with the pecking order where I am now than anything I have ever seen. People here truly know who they are relative to anyone else more than anything that I have seen before. Its an interesting idea to "buy into" past a certain extent. I can see how it could lead to more racism: If a person doesn' see enough diversity where they are and they have that mentality it could easily lend itself to racism.

There are arguments that you can see coming a mile away. There are arguments that just happen. Therer are arguments where you say "Oh, come on! Do we really need to argue about this?" I am easily "weirded/ sketched out" by arguments that are Absolutely unprovoked. I will always look at you skeptically if that happens: Especially if it happens more than once.

Everyone has to coexist with people who are not like them in this universe. They may or may not be next door but these people are certainly out there somewhere. Not everyone is okay with the fact that people who are different than them exist regardless of whether they encounter tham or not. Everyone doesn't have to get along with me, but if you know anything about my personality I am a good guy to be able to "co-exist" with. If you can't co-exist with a guy like me there must never be any peace in your life...

I am not a big fan of the phrase "whatever you want to do." It can mean "You have the option to do whatever you want to." It could also mean "Do you want to fight me." People often say it to me in a conext where it could be taken either way...