12/3/2010

I get hit on by guys occasionally. I Reeeeeeally don't like that. People's preferences are none of my business but its best to just take no for an answer when it when it involves me. Don't challenge me on that issue. Best to just leave some people alone...

Its really difficult to find what I am looking for these days. When there are certain qualities that you are looking for its easy to be mistaken about a specific person in regards to something. The problem is that I run into a Huge group of people who are mislabeled sometimes. That shouldn't happen. Imagine being somewhere and everyone is mislabeled for miles and miles and you're thinking, "This isn't what I am looking for. If this is what's here, where are the people that I am looking for.

I had some candied yams recently. They tasted good but I couldn't eat any pie afterward. Thats the first time I ever thought, "Maybe I shouldn't eat this. I am spoiling my dessert."

I had so much static electricity in my clothes recently that my clothes LITERALLY lit up every time I took something on or off. I felt like Raiden.

Recentlt I was looking at something at youtube and I saw that Sir Mix-A-Lot video "my posse's on Broadway." It brought back somechildhood memories (I listen to current music...I just find myself listening to older music a lot because the cocaine inspired music of today isn't what i am into). I am not sure how many people remember the juke box network but before there was MTV Cribs, there was a 3 minutes version of it on the jukebox networks. Instead of requesting a video a person would request a 3 to 4 minute segment where they are talking about their house. I guess its like a commercial that was so good that e\it ended up with its own show. I remember that Sir Mix A Lot had a segement on the jukebox network. Apparently that Kris Kross vidoe "jump" Enraged Sir-Mix-A Lot. It wasn't that he was throwing chairs on anything but he could barely talk about his Benz's and Rolls Royces because he was taking shots at Kris Kross. I am probably the near the same age as Kriss Kross so I thought, "He is that angry at some adolescents? Whats that all about?" Now that I am Older I think that I can see how that could piss someone off...

11/24/2010

These are rsandom things to think of but...

I think that Exteme Stalker situations happen because people enable the Stalker somehow. It probably has happened in the history of mankind but I don't believe that there are one-man-army stalkers. I think that there are stalkers and the people who enable them or assist their stalking somehow. I think that those people are as guilty as the "stalker.

I am at the upper limit of people who keep their anger in check. Especially if you view it in relationship to what is happening around me acround me at any given time. I think that a lot of people want you to keep your anger in check so that they can get away with anything, though. Just because someone keeps their anger in check doesn't mean that offenders will get away with ergregious things. People shouldn't think, "He doesn't seem enraged so I will get away with robbing him."

The weather has been very cold lately. I am fully aware of the fact that Fall and winter in Southern California is not as warm as Summer but, wow! Does that mean that it is that much colder everywhere else?

Where is Everyone?? I met 100s of people in this area back in the day but I never run into anyone...

This can't be a normal situation but up to this point law school has been $10s of thousands wasted. I can honestly say that I made more money during the year in between law school and undergrad than what I have earned during the entire time since I graduated from law school. I didn't make much before law school either. You would think that it was holding me back somehow: Thats close to NEVER right?

11/18/2010

I woke up with the right side of my face swollen this morning. My room mates were asking me about it and I didn't have much of an explanation for them. I guess that its going to be one of those days...

Occasionally people still bother me excessively about MI or Det. I understand how the topic comes up Ever but I think the only reason that amyone ever would bother me about that is because they know that it makes me angry. Not sure why anyone would want to go out of their way to make me angry: I guess, "why Not?" Huh? Apparently its not a complete day unless you bother someone about something they Obviously have nothing to do with...

11/9/2010

I was watching that show 1000 ways to die recently. I guess that that show is a good gauge of how the censors have changed oveer the years. I don't think that that show could ever have mader it past the censors on basic television ten years ago. That show might not have been on basic television. but it definitely wasn't on HBO.

It is difficult to not have any presence online these days. Most of the people that I know are on a numerous social networking websites. It is difficult because I am adverse to adding a bunch of people to my friendlist at this point. That is too much personal information to put out into the mainstream for the world to see for my comfort levels.

I was listening to that muse song uprising recently. It came on the radio and gained my attention enough that I didn't change the title. I thought that it was a song from the 70s or something but it was released recently.

I might not be getting a random sample of the tpes of articles that are being posted on yelp.com lately. Based on what I have been reading it seems like they types of reviews that people are posting now had changed. People are writing reviews more in line with what someone would write for an essay assignement for school. I am more accustomed to the yelp.com posting that reads like "I am not really sure what to say about this club. Some friends told me about this place so we decided to hang out there last weekend. The music was ok. I got... really wasted that night and hooked up with some girl in the unisex bathroom. I woke up in the gutter the next morning shivering. Now I am recovering from the clap..."

People talk about messing up a lot lately. I intend to take this in a different direction than the people who I heard mention it recently (I honestly hear people talk about this all the time... no particular person inspired this. . It seems like there can be too much potential to "mess up". Its not normal for every interaction that you have with anyone around you to be a potential opportunity to screw up. If you are in a position where every interaction is a potential screw up, you can't avoid everyone, and conflict is common, you still have to live your life. If thats the best situation that you can find for yourself, may as well make the best of it...

I read something in the not-to - distant past that said. "Acquaintances cannot call you. Thats why they are acquaintances." That comment made a lot of sense to me. I have gained respect for people who don't attempt attempt to get around the fact that they don't know someone enough to make a comment to them directly by saying something indirectly but loud enough that they hear it. Apparently it takes a lot of self-control to not do that.

Nostalgia

I am nostalgic lately. Lately I will read about something from some point in time in my life that actually had an upside to it and it will cause me to reminisce a bit. I was surfing the web and I saw an article about the play N*W*C. I was like, "Wow, that play is still going! I was there when it started! I was there!" I remember seeing those guys while I was walking through UCLA's campus all of the time when they were spreading the word about and beginning to show the play for the first time. I was there!! I felt like I was reliving the magic all over again when I was reading the article...

The weather has been better recently. That two week stretch where it rained recently was weird.

I have been getting a lot of scathing commetns posted on this blog recently. I haven't decided whether I will post those comments yet. It makes me wonder: Who is reading this blog?

Lately I have been doing a workout that a personal trainer told me about in starbucks years ago. If I recall correctly he worked at Bodies in Motion in Los Angeles. I don't think that I have ever gained so much respect for anyone in their field of expertiese as I gained for that guy when he gave me that workout advice. It Easily gave me and continues to give me the best results that I have ever seen...

10/26/2010

This is interesting. I was talking to someone about my high-rep workout recently. I was explaining to him exactly what I was trying to accomplish. He has a different body type than me so I didn't go so far as to recommend the workout to him. He has different goals and a different body type. This went without incident because it isn't significant to say that someone with different goals and body types should do a different workout. I am never the guy who claim that what is good for one person is good for everyone.

I think that it makes some people uncomfortable if you point out the fact that there is some difference between you and them that makes something different up your alley as opposed to theirs. It seems to make people unconfortable if you don't point it out but you just live life in such a manner. There are differences between people, though. I think its worthwhile to be rational about it sometimes.

10/25/2010

I meet a lot more people who are fighting a fight against diminishing returns lately. The fact that some people are far beyond or exceeding what actually translates into anything extra to show for it seems to bother them a lot. The fact that this guy's 8 pack gets them the same girl as that guy who has a four pack stomach seems to eat them alive inside. The fact that they live in a comparable mansion to someone with lesser status really seems to bother them. The fact that their upscale venue barely rivals some hole in the wall in club in Hollywood that anyone with the right "look" ca nget into seems to bother them. Thats an interesting mindset.

I was watching cartoons at some point in the recent past. I don't watch much tv so I don't know how to act when I have a remote control. Cartoons today are so much different than they were were i was that age. GI Joe and Transformers might still be on television in some way shape or form but they are not much like the originial. I guess that that refelects upon the writers. Whoever wrote for cartoons when i was that age is probably in their 60s by now. Its interesting to think that that would translate into cartoond being a lot edgier back then.

I was listening to some rap songs that were released recently. It dawned on me that most of the hits that were released between the late 80s and up till recently were mostly released by people in the same age racket. They are all close to 40 now right? maybe a little bit older or a little bit younger. People who were younger than that were like honorary members of that generation for the purposes of that genre of music. What happens at this point? Does that quality of the genre diminish as they move on to things?

I was thinkingabout that hitchcock episode "The Case of Mr Pelham." This is not to be confused with that Travolta/ Washingtom movie that was released recently. It made me think about indentity theft generally. If there was ever a serious indentity theft situation, people probably want the person who they know or the person who they like to most to win that case. That doesn't really prove anything though. Certainly people being able to speak to who they have been dealing with claiming to be said person matters but hard evidence doesn't cease to matter because of it (I am talking about the sitation wjhere there is a genuine dispute). It is probably difficult to regain your identity in a situation where someone of status steals your identity also... I have never encountered anyone who was enough like me to plausibly be mistaken for me after any lengthy interaction...

Someone posted a comment asking me if I ever felt lonely: thats an interesting question. It is certainly the case that not everyone can cause me to feel other than lonely...this leads to loneliness when I am too far away from ideal situations. Thats the best answer that I can give. Its always good for people to take my word for when I am in an ideal sitation though...A person is beside him/herself to attempt to exceed my stance on that. It is an issue of degree, though. The last time that I Very didnt feel alone was probably 2005...

10/19/2010

Someone asked me what scares me...Once I was headed to a bar/club with a friend of mine. He said: "You hang out at Hollywood Billiards!" I had never told him that I hung out at Hollywood Billiards and wouldn't tell me how he knew that I hung out there. That sort of thing bothers me... That place probably doesn't exist anymore...

It makes sense to me that there would be technological advances beyond what the general public knows about in eixstence. I wonder how many unsolvable situations would be solvable if people could account for the fact that there is technology out there that they probably don't know about/ is beyond what they have access to. I can imagine a handful of things that would change everything if they existed and these things are not that much of a stretch.

I was looking at a bunch of definitions recently. This dictionary had a bunch of definitions that I had never heard of. I was sitting there trying to figure out if these defintions are to be taken as synonymous with the other definitions that I found elsewhere or if they were different defintions. Thats not always obvious...

10/18/2010

This is a link that I think is worth checking out. Recently I wrote a blog about how I think that the college dunk contest tends to be more entertaining than the NBA dunk contest. This is what I am talking about...

http://rivals.yahoo.com/ncaa/basketball/blog/the_dagger/post/Pepperdine-guard-Keion-Bell-dunks-over-seven-peo?urn=ncaab-277687

I know that a lot of people have played the video game grand theft auto 4. If you have played that game you have probably reached the point where a random guy on the street gives Nico a hundred dollar bill and the only reason was because he is rich. I thought: thats interesting... No one would do that in real life but its a video game so whatever. Something similar to that happened to me in real life. I was sitting at a bus stop when this guy walks over to me. He was dressed in shabby swaet pants and an Old t-shirt. He walks up to me and shows me a a wad of hundred dollar bills and says that he would give me one of them if I could finish the lyrics of the song that he was singing. I didn't know the lyrics to the song so I didn't get anything. I am not sure if he was trying to make some sort of point about not judging a book by its cover by dressing shabbily then showing me thousands of dollars etc but I don't "have" that sort of behavior. I started to say, "Are you stupid or something??!"

I really am not the guy who polices whether people "get their own" or not. Certain people are going to have to stop bothering me though. Its like that whole "you don't have to go home but you have to get out of here" thing. I do have people start conversations with me and its a positive thing sometimes but...people who don't fit into that category wont get much responsiveness from me. Apparently people fill in all of the gaps about me with stereotypes. Since they don't know much about me I get a lot of that sort of thing sent in my direction: Apparently they don't know that thats frowned on...

Hmm

The funniest thing is that people people will say battereis in the back ground for an extended period of time. If it just happened once you probably wouldnot notice. After it goes on for an extended period of time it starts to get to you. If they say "Im Gay" or "I'm Insane" in the background a few times they say that they said something that rhymes with it when they are approached or something like that. There's that guy whose screaming "Get some counseling" or "cuckold" into the phone while he's talking about it. Or better yet when someone says something especially ergregious and obvious in the background then people start saying "hallucinate" in the background.

That sort of thing is always interesting to me because I am not the sort of person who bothers people or crosses them without any sort of provocation whatsoever. I guess that it is a stage that you reach in your thinking where you understand that that sort of thing is a terrible idea. I guess that you have to get some backlash for doing something like that to understand the cost-benefit of it and not bother people. Its just not worth it.

I have also come to realize that crazy people are not at the bottom of the food chain by any stretch of the imagination. People should do what they can to be North of that...

10/6/2010

Can you be rejected by someone who you didn't express any interested in? If someone breaks into your house and locates you in your den then rejects you, is that still a rejection?


It has been raining constantly for nearly a week. This is an outrageous amount of rain for Southern California. It was 110 degrees one day last week before this constant downpour...

What if people were tall enough that wild cats (like Lions, Tigers, Leopards, etc) were the same size that a domestic cat is relative to regular people. If a person walked past a Leopard they were walking past an animal the size of a regular cat from their vantage point. I bet that jungle cats wouldn't make a sound when people walked past them...

Moments definitely matter but I think of things other than a moment when I describe person generally. If someone doesn't have a dime in their pocket right now and gets splashed by a car driving over a muddy puddle, I don't describe them as some Filthy person who doesn't have a dime to their name until they get over to the atm and take a shower ten minutes later. I think that a lot of people are about the moment..

I still have a "respect of person" when it comes to whose opinion matters to me. Anyone can make a valid point and I would respect it but otherwise I am not inclined to put a ton of weight upon every person's opinion on a given topic. I encounter a fair amount of people who I don't identify with but they won't drop the issue and let me go about my business if we cannot agree. What a person should do when someone is not respecting where they are coming from and refuses to drop the issue and stop bothering them about it is domething that I am trying to resolve. Somethin has to give in that situation. When people are disrespectfull its never fun...

10/4/2010

Recently someone made the comment that a rumor ruined their life. I actually believe that that could be true in my current universe. This doesn't seem to be the situation where a person could get in trouble for spreading baseless accusations/rumors...

I hear a lot of people talking about selfishness latey in different contexts. People rarely elaborate on what they did or what someone else did that is selfish, though. That might be appropriate but sometimes I wonder what is considered to be a selfish act. Most people sacrifice for some people/ some cause to some degree at some point. Are people spending on something that they dont want at all when that money could save someone's life? Is it the far other end of the spectrum and someone thinks that people should be walking restaurants and exist for the soul purpose of letting people eat off of them? What is a selfish act?

I really get sick of hearing verbal batteries. Someone needs to check those people when they are very blatant...

A High Price To Pay

More of the same for me recently...not much new to report...It has been so long since I blogged that I figured that I would post an entry...

I see a lot of situations where someone owes someone else...I was thinking about a high price that I saw someone pay for borrowing money...Once I was in my room when I hear, "Clean the living room, then when you are finished cleaning the living room proceed to the upstairs bathroom! There are a lot of things that you can do to maintain a clen living environment if you don't have money for groceries, Sir!!" The guy who was cleaning looked so embarrassed. Seemed like a high price to pay...

I saw some girls who were Obviously going out for the night. They were dressed up and everything. IT has been more than a year since I have gone out. That made me think of how long it had been.

Someone commented about the fact that I live "in the boonies" now. I guess thats a way to look at it. I live near some horses (which is a text book definition of being far out beyond "way out") but thats not really typical of what happend in my So Cal area...

New Music

I want to hear some new music but I haven't been to a bar or club recently, the radio doesn't necessarily play what I would put in my mp3 player, and I am not in contact with anyone who is in the know about new music. Its not the most efficient way to find new music but it looks like i m going to have to go to myspace music and search for new music. Its kind of a pain but finally having new music is worth it.

I have had a lot of problems in the past that I have blogged about. I think that the most important thing to realize is that I had to have trusted the wrong person at some point in the past for much of it to happen. For anyone in a position to do so, it would be wise for you to look at my situation, figure out who I never should have trusted, and steer clear of them (if it can happen to me it can happen to you: Don't delude yourself into thinking that they become trustworthy the moment they are dealing with someone other than me). The saddest thing about it is that my "open-mindedness" probably played a role in my circumstances. "I used to be too open minded/ open to different types of people" sounds like the Worst lesson to ever learn, but who can tell me otherwise at this point? The funny thing is that being 25% as open minded as I used to be still makes me more open-minded than most...

I encounter people with vastly differernty opinions than I am accustomed to hearing/ my opinions. I guess that that is normal. I don't think that the weird thing is encountering vastly different opinions. I think that the unusual thing is constant exposure to it: At my age most people have tended toward people who agree with them a lot more. If you ever have to start over that could chang though: If you ever have to start over from the bottom you encounter a lot of ideas that you are not used to as you work your way up (if you are fortunate enough to be able to head upwards.)

This is interesting. Everyone has had a conversation with someone where someone is talking about how they don't feel that they fit, they don't think that people like them, they try hard to fit in but it doesnt work etc. The other person usually says something to the effect of: Thats not true, I have never heard anyone say anything bad about you, people like you etc. (This usually isn't far from the truth). Recently I heard that sort of conversation: someone is talking about how they don't feel that they fit, they don't think that people like them, they try hard to fit in but it doesnt work etc. This the guy responded by saying "You're Noid!" That was quite possibly the most severe thing that I have ever heard...

7/15/2010

My thoughts about Michigan are well known: I never want to be there in the future and I never want to be invited there. I don't really want to have it mentioned. Sometimes people don't drop the issue and its very unsettling to me. Its like: are you planning to kidnap me and force me to be in MI? you better drop the issue!

As much as I hear about it recently it seems that half that population has tried to move to California. Someone said that MI might be the place to be if everyone from there is moving here. I don't know about that!!

Highlights of The Past year and other ideas

My last year wasn't the sort of thing that I aim for but some interesting things happened...

Earlier this year, someone was moving out of a house that I lived in under less than favorable circumstances. As the guy who was moving out was walking out of the door with his last box of clothes he stopped, looked at the guy who was standing by the door and said, "You crazy out your mind!!" Then he walked out of the door. The guy who was standing by the door could have reacted many different ways but he reacted with a facial expression that suggested that he was thinking "I think he thinks I'm crazy..." That had nothing to do with me but I thought that it was funny because it was Classic example of Equality in action...


I remember when I first moved into the shelter where I lived for a few months. A guy who was there patted someone on the shoulder and wanted to talk to him bout something. The other person pushed his hand away and yelled "Get the f*** away from me, man!!" I thought, "Man, that guy is mean!" After being there for a while i came to understand that he probably wasnt overreacting...

Its interesting how we underestimate how much goes on in a person's life because most of our concept of a person is what that person does when we can see what they are doing. I was sitting at the table one day eating. A guy who I lived with walked in and said hello as he entered the front door. The next time I saw him he was entering the same door and I was sitting in the exact same spot eating. I knew what he was going to say. He said "I walked in earlier and you were sitting there eating a big plate, then i came back and you were sitting there eating..." I thought of explaining to him that I had left the house, took care of some business, worked out, and a lot of other things since he last saw me, and that i only had 2 meals that day. Instead, I just sort of lowered my head in resignation, though...

I listen to what everyone says and I respect people as a general rule unless they do somethign that causes me to think otherwise. I definitely have "respect of person" though. I don't care about every person's opinion about everything. Occasionally it truly comes down to "Who are you that I should give a crap about your opinion about this particular issue?!"

Everyone has done this at some point, but I try not to remind people about how they don't know me especially well. Occasionally, it has to be said. I avoid saying it because I think that its a serious argument if a person ever says that to someone who has too much to say about them. No matter how civil you are about saying it, its a serious argument. Have you ever said "I don't know you like that" to anyone then been close friends with them ever?? Never!

There is more of a fascination with the pecking order where I am now than anything I have ever seen. People here truly know who they are relative to anyone else more than anything that I have seen before. Its an interesting idea to "buy into" past a certain extent. I can see how it could lead to more racism: If a person doesn' see enough diversity where they are and they have that mentality it could easily lend itself to racism.

There are arguments that you can see coming a mile away. There are arguments that just happen. Therer are arguments where you say "Oh, come on! Do we really need to argue about this?" I am easily "weirded/ sketched out" by arguments that are Absolutely unprovoked. I will always look at you skeptically if that happens: Especially if it happens more than once.

Everyone has to coexist with people who are not like them in this universe. They may or may not be next door but these people are certainly out there somewhere. Not everyone is okay with the fact that people who are different than them exist regardless of whether they encounter tham or not. Everyone doesn't have to get along with me, but if you know anything about my personality I am a good guy to be able to "co-exist" with. If you can't co-exist with a guy like me there must never be any peace in your life...

I am not a big fan of the phrase "whatever you want to do." It can mean "You have the option to do whatever you want to." It could also mean "Do you want to fight me." People often say it to me in a conext where it could be taken either way...

6/24/2010

I have blogged abouy a lot of the problems that I have had in the past. I would say that if you are ever in a situation like mine in 2005, it is important to focus on the new opportunities that are now available to you. It may be difficult to think about anything other than how your life is crumbling around you but it is important to focus on your newfound opportunites and consolie yourself with your success as opposed to letting other catastrophic occurences drag you down too much.

Thats all that I have for this week...

6/15/2010

My birthday is in a few days so I have taken this time as an opportunity to reflect on things. I have kept these things in perspective, though. People who focus on the obscure past a bit too much are always interesting to me. Especially when it is not something positive. Those people generally have an agenda if its something negative concerning someone else: I don't think that the obscure past should cause too much of a disconnect from a person's ability to perceive current reality. I definitely am not saying that the negative past never matters. I am just saying that its good to be aware of when it does and does not matter/ is or is not relevant.

I definitely am not where I aimed to be by the time I reached my birthday this year. Supposedly its still just an issue of submitting an application. Hopefully things will improve in the near future.

I was board recently so I picked up a cook book and started thumbing through it. I know how to make a few different things but I wouldn't call myself a "cook" by any stretch. Who knows...the next time I invite a girl over maybe I could impress her somehow. I realized that I don't have enough of the tools that are necessary to cook anything more advanced than what I am making right now. I don't have a blow torch on hand that chef's use to cook certain dishes... Maybe thats the measuring point of who is really serious about it and who isn't.

Fun with Pets

Is it inherently weak to accuse a dehydrated man of driking all of the water? I don't mean this literally but someone thought that I was "accusing the dehydrated man of drinking all of the water" recently. Sort of thing recently...

In one of my past blogs, I mentioned that there was a cat that lived in one of my previous residences. There is also a cat at my current residence. This cat is interesting because sometimes it wants me to pet it. Other times it either ignores me ort bites me. There was an incident where someone kicked the cat recently (Not a hard but a kick nontheless). Because of the cats behavior towards me I was a bit ambivlaent toward the kick. I guess that its different if its "your" cat.

This is interesting. I am not sure how many people have ever picked up a behavior from a dog but... Once, around ten years ago, I was walking home from class when I saw a dog sitting on the neighbor's porch. It ususually just looked at me as I walked by. I decided to try to intereact with it: I started clicking my tongue and whistling at it. A Very unsettled look came across it's face and it looked in the direction opposite of where I was standing. I, feeling rejected, said "Hey! Hey!" It continued to ignore me. I walked in the diorection it was looking and stood there. It looked in the direction opposite of where I was standing. I gave up and walked away. I told a friend about it once and their response was "Andre, its just a dog. It doesn't matter." Occasionally I find myself doing the same thing that that dog did. If someone who I want nothing to do with starts bothering me I get an Extremely unsettled look on my face and look in the opposite direction. Works like a charm.

6/8/2010

I have a payphone in the house that I live in that is the "house phone." The other day I was trying to figure out why it costs $4.50 to call the East cost of the U.S. from SoCal using the phone...Thats not very interesting but it is one of the more interesting things that has happened recently.

I don't remember a lot from when i was a kid. I do remember those "raps" that they used to make up to keep kids away from drugs or help kids memorize the the 50 states etc. It wasn't anything that a talented rapper wrote. It was always a rap that your 60 year old 2nd grade teacher wrote during her lunch break. I think that those types of "raps" could still be effective at this age. "Its not Cool to smell like Stool: Shower Power!"

Another Blog Entry

I encounter a lot more people who are being sarcastic now than I used to. The thing about it is that there is no apparent reason to think that the person is being sarcastic. What they are saying isn't far-fetched enough or obviously contradictory of reality enough to be assumed to be sarcasm. I guess you have to be on the same wave length as the sarcastic person to know whether they are being sarcastic or not in those situation. Someone said something about wanting to do something because there being "So many criminals." I tend to assume that he was being sarcastic but I wouldn't be shocked if he wasn't...


There are many reasons in this world why a person would need to shield his/her identity to a certain extent. Some of these reasons are valid. Its a zero sum game, though. The fact that any given person is sheilding his identity puts any person who is not shielding their identity at some sort of disadvantage. Can you really trust people to not take advantage of that sort of thing? Who polices that sort of thing to make sure that it isn't abused?

I was watching the Lakers gmae yesterday. I guess that Phoenix is "in it" right now. Steve Nash is looking more like a Prize fighter than basketball player lately...

I was watching that show "Deadliest Warrior" on television the other day. I think that it was on Spike TV but I am not certain. I watched a show about who would win a fight between a Shaloin Monk and Maori Warrior. I watched a show about who would win between the United States Green Beret and a soveiet Equivalent, and I watched a chow about who would win between Jesse Jame's gang and Al Capone's gang. If I didn't misunderstand,+ they put a bunch of information into a computer and the computer decided what would happen in the fight. That show is Outrageous!

Credit

Recently, someone was talking about bad credit. I am not talking about a credit score: I am talking about those things that happened in your past that people throw in your face whenever you say something to the contrary. My response to any of those pointed at me are that 1) I haven't had much of a chance to respond since so much of my contact information was altered and 2) Most people who say that sort of thing about me should be doing it from behind bars. 3) There is no truth whatsoever to a lot of it. I will leave it at that for the moment. We tend to perceive things a certain way because it supports our argument regardless of all the facts. I have had to do some things to survive recently (I still wonder why) that seemed like an unimaginable nightmare before it happened. For instance: Your good sense should tell you that I am not "into" a Homeless shelter...

I was thinking about an interesting comment that I heard a long time ago. It didn't strike me as being interesting commentary until long afterward. We were talking about one of those medieval sir lancelot/ king arthur type movies that was in the theater at the time. It wasn't about king arthur specifically but I am certain that you know what I am talking about. There was an Elite group of knights involved, etc. Someone said "Those boys were bad! Back in those days you won the fight or you either ended up dead or hanging in a dungeouns by your wrists shackled to a wall!" I never thought of it that way before....

5/17/2010

Has anyone ever played that video game Saint's Row? Sometimes I feel like I am stuck inside of that videogame. An interesting part of that game is that if things aren't going well sometimes one of your "homies" will "leave" you and start shooting at/ attack you. Sometimes they "leave" for no apparent reason. My expereince is that some people seriously "leave" in real life and EXPECT you to continue to interact with them. What's that all about?

I was thinking about an experience that I had a while ago. This is a timeless experience that probably could have happened at any point in the history of mankind. I was hanging out with one of my room mates and a couple of his friends. We went to a local/ somewhat trendy bar and stood there. Half the girls in the bar came over and started hitting on one of the guys that we were with. He was some sort of model so I guess that that sort of things happens. Attractive girls were hitting on him and he wasn't interested (Attractive by Los angeles standards). He said, "You become a little spoiled if you're me" and that what was happening was nothing to him. I think that he accepted the most attractive girl at that bar's phone number. That was it. Girls who were "Merely" pretty attractive sort of made his eye twitch when they hit on him. I had never seen anything like that in my life and still have not seen anything like that again to this day.

5/14/2010

I was watching that movie beetle juice the other day. I hadn't seen that movie for a while so it was cool to watch that movie. Someone always says Beetlejuice 3 times while watching that movie.

My test of whether something is personal or not is whether people do the right thing in regards to that particular conflict. If someone commits a crime against someonse and people are held accountable as a person is normally held accountable then its personal. If people get away with all manner of monstrous things and are never held accountable then its not really personal. You can consider people "biased" and yourself a "non-member" at some level at that point. Considering what people have been able to get away with in regards to me: Things can't be personal.

I had a weird dream recently. In real life, People have been mistaking me for someone else a lot. People are walking up to me and finishing previous conversations that they were having with someone else. Sometimes these interactions are very hostile and I have to check them because I have never met them before. People always say "Wow..you have a twin around here..." This is probably why I have had this dream. In my dream, there is an Encino man guy (for those who have seen the movie Encino man) who is impersonating/ being mistaken for me but it is impossible for me to ever locate him. Someone would show me video footage of my look-a-like looking at a remote control car as if it was awe-inspiring because he had never see anything remotely that technologically advanced. I would say "Wait a minute! Thats someone else!" This led to a lot fo confusion. I wonder what that dream means.

One of the guys who mistook me for someone else (in real life) walked up to me randomnly and asked me something about chucking spears. Clearly completely out of his mind. He struck me as one of those people who bother me about where I am "from" after I had explained things to him. I don't associate with people like that so I can't fathom how that conversation is occuring/why he is concerned about that (You need to make sure that you are dealing with the right person before you say anything that crazy...I clearly am not the right person). He seemed like one of those guys who is hell-bent on doing something disastrous when there is no reason whatsoever. If a girl begged him for sex he would probably curse her out and hit her. At that point she would change her mind and call the cops. Next, he would hook up with her specifically so that he could be forcing the issue at that point.

I was standing on Harbor looking toward Fullerton the other day. That is a Huge mountain...

5/6/2010

I think that this sums up my problems recently over the past few years. People are very good at getting decision makers to take their word for and rubber stamp important decisions pertaining to my life. If I bought a mansion, someone could complain to the authorities and say that it is not Andre's mansion and that it is actually thier mansion. There would be no invesitgation: They would just take that person's word for it. "Andre is living in your mansion??!! He is out of there!" I guess that the decison maker doesn't much at stake in the issue so why follow anything close to procedure?? Let's take his word for it because he is soem random guy...

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When people ask me where I am from, I say Los Angeles: This is true. I have lived other places before but I am from Los Angeles at this point. A lot of things aggravate me but i substantively dislike people who continue to bother me about whether I am from MI after I explain that I am from Los Angles...

5/3/2010

I watched the "Get Smart" movie that was in theaters recently. I was not born when the original series was on television but I used to watch the reruns on Nick at Night when I was a kid. After the movie I was left to wonder: Is get smart more about futuristic devices or is it more about the devices that were used in the original series? A shoe phone doesn't seem nearly as futuristic now as it did 40 years ago but would it seem like get smart without a shoe phone? Would it be a a better update of the original series if they used something that was Futuristic by today's standard as opposed to the shoe phone? Its one of those questions like "Are you more like a person who is very unique if you are also very unique or are you more like that person if your behavior is actually similar to theirs?"

Have you ever asked someone to translate something that someone said then they wouldn't translate it? They just said something like, "They said something crazy..."

I was watching a phoenix game recently: Grant Hill attacked the rim full-speed and nearly Dunked on someone. I was thinking "Wow! A lot of players who haven't recovered from serious energy don't attack the rim that way...

I was also thinking of a different basketball related topic: Ways that a player can lengthen his career. Basketball players play into their upper thirties often anyway now but...

This isn't a complete list and its not in any order of importance but...

1. Zone defense- The fact that the NBA allows zone defenses now makes it easier to keep players in the league longer: Its not as difficult to kee a quicker/faster character in front of you playing a zne defense.

2. Superstars who play on teams with other Superstars/ All stars- This is very common now but not true of Every team. Playing alongside Pau Gasol will lengthen Kobe Bryant's careers. Actually, it will lengthen Odom and Artest's career also. Guys who are the only Exceptional players on the team have shorter careers.

3. Being willing to be a role player in later years- Not everyone is willing to be a role player if they used to be the main option.

4. Don't play through serious injuries- Some injuires are not as serious as others: Some injuries won't shorted a players career if he plays through it. No one can question the heart of someone who plays through serious injuries but most teams would have been better off in the long term to have important players play a few extra years as opposed to playing through significant injuries.

4/27/2010

I was thinking of something that happened a couple of years ago. I was eating at some fast food place and some guy sitting near me started talking to me. He said something like "**** is my name, pooten tang is my game..." He said that he was related to someone famous and started asking me questions about law school. I just finished my food hastily and got out of there as soon as possible. Was I "sleeping" because I didn't dial 911 and grab a can of mace?

I rarely hold onto the past. I remember good times and even go so far as to blog them occasionally. I don't hold onto it unless it is a past that is plausibly revisited. I usually don't hold onto bad feelings because if anything unforgivably ergregious happens I believe in disassociating. If I am not going to encounter them or remnants of what they have done in the past why think of that? There is no valid reason why I couldn't return to some variation of my Los Angeles life in the near future. Since that is something that would be cool I view it that way. I don't know that many of the same people are still around and things have changed, but such is life. Aside from that, there isn't much of a plausible possibility of the past being revisited. Some people need things to be perceived as they were 15 years ago for the sake of their argument. That works sometimes but, in regards to my own life, its not plausible. You won't get any encouraging of that sort of thing on my end. At the age of thirty, if I havent seen someone in ten years I have no idea what to expect when I encounter often. I can't relate to the kind of life that makes it likely that who a person was at 15 is only marginally different than who they are at 30. (I get bothered more than most people about something like that so I continue to blog about it. I am probably too nice: People bother a**holes a lot less)

I attempt to start over in life but it is difficult. In the past I have lacked some level of understanding of the things/people that I needed to leave behind. I perceive it as cancer: a doctor has to have a level of understanding of the cancer that allows him/ her to target the cancer and not leave remnants of the cancers or cut away something benign during the treatment process. I have not been very effective at removing cancer from my life (I don't literally have cancer, its an analogy). I can't start over into infinity so I have to make the next time count. All things considered I am probably missing to some extent but I don't know how to sort something like that out.

Some anonymous comment poster thought that I seemed confused. I wouldn't say that having my accounts hacked constantly and having my e-mail address canceled (among other things) is "confusing." There isn't really any dissonance in my mind about that. I think that peanut butter and jelly togther doesn't make sense to that person. I guess it depends on who you ask.... I don't have a problem with people who see things differently than me, but allow me to interact with someone else when all is said and done if we don't see eye to eye. Don't continue to bother me.

4/23/2010

I don't like to be confused with anyone else. I don't want that to happen but there is only so much that anyone would plausibly do to ensure that he is not confused with someone else. It is Unavoidable to a certain extent but I am Original enough to make that highly unlikely...

I always find it interesting when people insist that a person take full responsibility for their current circumstances. I am one of the most forgiving people that I have ever encountered but I am not obssessed with forgiveness by any stretch of the imagination. I refuse to take responsibilty for someone else hacking my online accounts (among other things). If you truly know what I have been through (Or have any idea), I am going to call you on it if you suggest that my current circumstance is my own doing. You are going to have to produce the evidence of the village that I raped, pillaged and burned to the ground. Obviously that did not happen but certainly that time that I littered when I was five years old does not mean that I deserved the negative things that have happened to me.

No: I will Never be back in Detroit again. My ever having been there was not a commitment to ever being there again. People choose the most outrageous set of occurences/ circumstances to base expectations on.

Simply Thursday

One of my accounts was canceled yesterday. If you try to contact me at andre.shannon@live.com you will not be able to reach me unless I can have the account reopened. I have had blogged about many problems that I have had with my e-mail accounts. Having my information altered in the past was a big deal, but I think that someone having my account canceled is the summit of outrageous problems that I could have with that account. That was my account: I created it! Imagine having the account that you used for 80& of your jobseach canceled. Whoever is tracking me/ causing me these problems is Very good at that sort of thing...

I am surprised that more people don't claim to have turetts so that they can say what they want to say whenever they want and get away with it. I hear people blurt out so much outrageous stuff during a day that I wonder why my location is not called the Turettes capital of the world sometimes. Most people around here don't blurt out "Cuckold!", "Insane!" etc constantly but enough people do this to make it very noticable, though. No one ever says anything about it to these people, though, I wonder why... Would a person really be out of line to ask them what their problem is after a while?

More of the same...

Orange County is a lot different than I expected it to be. I am certain that it looks a lot different from someone elses vantage point but I expected it to look more like Westwood.

I am having one of those weird days where I ask someone for a pen then their response is something like "There's 2 pens in each of your ears right now." Then I say "oh yeah, how could I have forgotten that..."

Still doing jobsearch. If anyone has heard of any openings...

I wrote about problems, events, and incidents that I have had in my life in this blog. A lot of it seemed very foreign when it was occuring: This is part of the reason why I didn't respond differently at the time. Is what I have described as occuring (felonies, etc) in life common somewhere?

Random Thoughts

I am still looking for a job and located in Southern, CA in case anyone wondered...

Being able to jump out of the stadium doesn't necessarily get basketball players a spot on a professional team, but it does get you a spot on a College team. Thus, I will be watching the College slam dunk contes the next time that it is on television.
It seemes like the key to winning is to make sure that your nose is above the rim on every dunk.

One thing that has occurred over the past few years is I have gained a more advanced understanding of how any given person came to be standing in front of me: An understanding that goes beyond the person telling me what part of town they are from or where they were born. Some of these people were beyond me somehow. Others would have some other explanation for why they were where they are. The road of knowing these sorts of things is a treacherous one, though. Most people would prefer not to know.

If a guy become visibly aroused while talking to a girl, he is perceived as being very aggressive regardless of his intentions. As if a guy can really control that sort of thing...

I think that I get carpetbagged more than most people. Whenever there is some turmoil in my life some remote person is always there to benefit from it.

I think I am the only person who gets asked questions like whether I think that the resurrection of Christ might be some sort of "Grudge". Don't ask me stuff like that...

3/20/2010

I was thinking of looking into the latest Fitness and weightlifting crazes. I probably won't actually try any of these trends in the near future: At the moment I am sticking to my tried, tested, and true workout methods. If I am already in the type of shape that I want to be in, it is fun to try new workouts. When I am getting back into shape I stick with old workout because every workout doesn't work for my body. It took 7 years of hardcore workout to find routines that I can always rely on. At this point I know what will get me back into the kind of shape that allows for me to try new things...

This isn't my idea but I agree with it: Facebook isn't what is was when i first began to use the website. When I first began to use the website you couldn't do a name search and find anyone unless they were in one of your school networks. If you did a namesearch of someone who went to a school that you didn't attend, they wouldn't appear in the results listing whether they were on facebook or not. It was strictly for classmates. I guess that facebook figured that that is what myspace was for. Apparently it was great for people whose life was centered around their campus somehow. Not being able to find people who didn't attend my school was a bit much but now facebook has turned into myspace. Someone could create a website that is what facebook was originally and it would be successful: A website that is exclusively for adding people who attended school with you...

I see some outrageous comments in the news and otherwise sometimes. When people say something that is too outrageous everyone wonders what they were thinking. There are many reasons why a person would do that but I think that one explanation is underrated: Some people take only talking amongst themselves to a new level. Some people's opinions are not tempered by anything else (That seems like a no brainer but no brainers "fly over people's heads" all the time). I am talking abut a more extreme case than what probably came to mind when you first read that. If these people are not very middle of the road something outrageous gets put out into the mainstream occasionally.

I was reading an article about the re-release of NBA Jam recently. A lot of people are excited to see what NBA Jam will look like on a Current video game system. I think that it would be interesting to see most Classic video games updated for Current systems. I might find the 8 bit Contra or double dribble online and play them in the near future but an X Box 360, Playstation 3, or Nintendo WII can do those games an entirely different type of justice. Most video games have been updated whether it is called an update/has the same name or not. Did anyone see the those new Ninja Gaiden games?

One of the more interesting things that have happened around me recently is that a huge portion of the wall of the place where i live had to be removed to get rid of a beehive that was in the house. I was completely unaware of the fact that the beehive existed until the new wall was almost finished. Someone said that you could barely see the sky after the beehive was destroyed initially: That many bees were released into the sky. That almost sounds like a horror movie. Its interesting that I didn't know that hat was going on until after the fact.

I read a story recently: A Chicago-based firm that owns the land that the Hollywood sign is built on wants to remove the Hollywood sign and build houses there. It doesn't surprise me that the people who want to do that are not actually from the area at all. They just don't "get it."

3/14/2010

-It has been warm during the day but very cold at night the last few days...

-Its interesting how famous people can't do a lot of things that everyone else without raising eyebrows. I remember a conversation that as something like:

Person number one: I saw **** walking down the street the other day, then he sat down in this restaurant and started eating food.

Second Person" Yeah, thats crazy...."

-I think that if I have anymore extended comments about bars, clubs, or restaurants I might take it over to yelp.com. That's the appropriate place for long rants about that sort of thing. Right?

-Conflict happens between friends, but what is the appropriate level? I am sure that everyone thinks about that sort of thing to some extent. I always try to avoid "frienemy" status. The problem is that the moment a "frienemy" does any serious damage to a person they say that said person "should have known better."

-This is random. Does assisted suicide still exist? I remember that it was a major issue a while ago. It seems like the sort of thing that has a too much potential for fraud or abuse. I always thought that that issue would culminate in a client's signature being forged in crayon on the release papers or something. After that people would have to jump through more loops than ever before if it still existed...

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I am as squeaky clean as anyone in my situation ever has been but it seems that they key to getting away with crimes is to stick with the ones that are taboo to bring up. It is very taboo to accuse people from certain backgrounds of certain crimes. It is very taboo to accuse anyone of any background of certain crimes. It almost seems like you need twice as much evidence as any normal accusation to accuse someone of these things. I don't need to be more specific, we all know the sort of thing that I am talking about. I definitely don;t believe in furthering frivolousness or stereotypes, but I am sure that someone out there is making a living out of exploiting that sort of thing. what i described in the last paragraph of the previous paragraph is that sort of thing...

I have this recurring dream that always picks up exactly where it left off. I don't have this dream every night, but whenever I have this dream it always begins where it ended and I have an entire set of memories that come into play when i have this dream. I can remember things when I am having any one of these dreams that I cannot remember when I was awake. The dream centers around having forgotten that I was in school until finals time, then I am trying to figure out how to bridge the gap of not knowing that I was enrolled in classes to knowing enough to pass the class in a 2 week period. I can remember everything that I was doing during the semester, but I can't seem to remember my school circumstance. I am always like, "I thought that I graduated from school already, but maybe thats the dream..." I always wake up before I my mind wonders too far down that path, though.

Random Ideas

I have seen some incredible deals on various things in my life. Regardless of the price, if the level of quality isn't high enough its not really worth owning... Everyone has encountered merchandise of some sort that was high priced but extremely inexpensive for whatever reason. One thing that I have never found a great deal on is laundry detergent. I am not saying that you should buy the most expensive laundry detergent, but the least expensive laundry detergent will knock 2 hours worth of dirt of your clothes as opposed to cleaning it thoroughly. Thats not enough...

During the christmas holiday I had a seasonal position that involved working on a truck. At some point there was a baby doll in the back of the truck that made one of numerous noises if you stood too close to it. There was no way for us to be far enough away from the baby doll to get it to stop making that noise so we had to listen to it for nearly an hour while we were working. At some point, I commented, "You would lose your mind if you were stuck in the room with that baby doll for an entire day and you couldn't block the noise out." The other guy said something like, "Probably..."

The events of the previous paragraph caused me to linger on a topic that I am not inclined to think of at all generally: Ways to drive someone out of their mind. (I AM NOT RECOMMENDING THAT ANYONE EVER DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS). This is an interesting idea, but if you can afford a camera and or a microphone with a recorder attached this could work: Record as much footage of a persons conversations or behavior as possible without their knowledge. After you have enough of this footage, Start repeating entire paragraphs and phrases of this person’s recent conversations to that person during the course of your conversation. Repeat phrases that happened recently enough or were Eventful enough that a person with a decent memory would definitely remember. Just make sure that these were conversations that the person had with someone else. Make frequent references to things the person did that were on camera but say that you were doing those things. Like if you know that a person was playing hopscotch while listening to Afroman earlier, say that you were playing hopscotch earlier while listening to Afroman while repeating entire paragraphs and Distinct phrases from previous conversations that a person had with other people. If you can get a few people involved in this it is that much more effective. Eventually the cumulative affect of something like that would drive someone out of their mind. A person should NEVER do something like this, but I am absolutely certain that it would work. I would guesstimate that the price tag attached to doing something like that is less than $200. Interesting to think about.

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Anonymous Comment Poster: Your inability to stay within a light year of appropriate boundaries based on the theory that I can't figure out who you are says more about you than you realize. I am sure that you cross all manner of lines in life and that stalking isn't something that you would avoid doing if you thought that you could get away with it by doing it anonymously. Based on recent comments, you know more about me than can be deduced based on this blog. Don't kid yourself. If you intend to stop sending me e-mails that is great. FYI, I have never heard of anyone eating Sushi at Miyagi's. Figure out what was happening there before you start posting comments.

I was having one of those "Who has the accent? Me or you?" conversations recently." Those are always fun.

I know that its over now, but i always wondered: Is that Fatman Scoop song "Put Ya Hands Up" live or was it done in a studio? Is that song "the best live 5 minutes that a DJ ever spun" (so to speak) that was caught on tape or was it very planned before hand and done in a studio.

Back in 2005 when i was having a lot of the problems that i have blogged about, someone said "Maybe your computer has been hacked. You should take your computer to best buy or your school's computer tech people." At the time I disregarded the advice. I couldn't see the slippery slope of my computer getting hacked to the madness that i was surrounded by at the time. My mind was on a different tangent. In hindsight, it was good advice...

I think that one of the weirdest things that has happened to me recently is... i was walking to an interview when i received a weird phone call. Someone asked to speak to me when i answered the phone. I thought that my voice was echoing because i could hear my voice coming through the phone. Eventually our voices/what we were saying in response to the customers service rep diverged and I realized that there was someone else who sounded like me having a telephone conversation with a customers service rep. My end of the phone was muted. I have a Distinct voice so the fact that this person sounded like me is an exceptional fact. I listened to this conversation between a customers service rep and someone who sounded like me and was claiming to be me during most of my walk to the interview. I was highly skeptical about the whole thing and ignored it because i wasn't sure what to do with/about it. I wonder if that affected my interview at all.

3/1/2010

I am not a huge fan of the "Anonymous" comment poster. I already had to delete some of your messages because of the outrageous content. Most likely my homelessness is related to "Anonymous" comment poster stalking me (or someone like him) or something in that vicinity. Are you the guy who has been harrassing me on messenger/chat, sending me e-mails, and trying to add me on networking websites? Are you the person who knows that I am online even though I blocked him?? If so, I made it clear that I am not into that sort of thing. I am thinking of posting these comments so that people can see exactly what you are attempting to post on my blog. "Anonymous" comment poster has certainly kicked it up a notch. In response to one of your many comments that I have not posted, what I did at the time was pretty standard/ relatively mild behavior compared to my peers most of the time.

I was on facebook.com recently and noticed another "We Hate Andre Shannon" web page. My only question is "How do they really feel about it?

Recently I was bored and decided to do a google search of my name and found that there is a Gay pornstar with the same name as me. I said, "You have to be kidding me!!" Previous to this, the last time that I googled my name, this Blog and my facebook page were the only thing that came up in the search. I am not sure how many pages you have to go through to find anything about me at this point. I really don't have the sort of name that typically causes that kind of confusion. I am not that guy doing spoken word on youtube either. It aggravates me to be confused with anyone else...I would guess that my social networks don't overlap with anyone who has the same name as me but this stuff comes up on the most basic search...

After what i have experienced, it seems that homelessness should be an easier situation to transcend if you have a decent resume or anything similar. In some capacity or another you encounter a lot of people who could easily cause you to be employed. Though many people genuinely want to help, the problem is that you are as likely to encounter someone with a mentality similar to the ruthless landlord from that movie "The Super" about the situation. That sort of thing makes it more difficult.

I used to have many friends added on my myspace page and friendster page. I don't use those sites anymore and I only have 12 friends added on my facebook page. FYI I only use one account that has 12 people (give or take one) added on facebook. I never thought about it this way, but the comments on my wall were like a long strings of inside jokes depending on who was reading it. I definitely don't aim to confuse anyone but my myspace page and blog were never meant to be a substitute for actually knowing me. The purpose of this blog is not to give strangers something that they can "hang their hat on" in that way.

I was thinking about something recently and realized that I was back to square one on that issue. How often does that happen? How often does a person reach a greater level of understanding only to realize that they now think the same thing that they did before they knew much about whatever the issue is. That RARELY happens to me...

New Blog

I still plan to start a new blog soon. Whatever that blog is about will be a lot more consistent than this blog. I realize that this blog covers a wide range of topics.

I am currently online at a coffee shop. I am here a the coffee shop a lot more infrequently than in the past. This sort of thing is my bag so I can't really complain about that.

Its interesting how the meaning/ connotations of words change over time. Someone was having difficulty paying attention to someone recently so they said that they were feeling a little bit ADD/ADHD. That word is not loaded with as much meaning as it was in the past. At some point in the past the poster child for ADD was someone who couldn't resist the urge to drop kick someone for no reason. They attributed that to an attention deficit. Now an attention deficit is if you aren't paying attention. Its not loaded the way that it used to be.

Funny Story: As everyone knows, I was homeless for a while. I am not sure that I can claim to not be homeless right now but I am in a different situation than I was before. There was a cat (Literally A Cat) at the homeless shelter where I lived previously. The cat had (or At Least tied with someone else) the distinction of being my best friend there. One day there was an incident that that stuck with me. Its interesting what sticks with a person. I was talking to someone there. He was standing up on a chair and said, "I figured out what wrong with you! You're dumb!!" Then he jumped off the chair and stomped the ground near the cat and scared the cat away. I said, "I'm never gonna forget this!" It was a big deal at the time, but it is funny in hindsight.

My Life since 2005 in a nutshell

I analogize my situation to this: If someone burns a cross on my front lawn, people choose to call the city and report that my property is now in violation of a local ordinance as opposed to calling the police and reporting a hate crime. I find it interesting that thats what they see when they look at my situation and wonder how I came to be surrounded by anyone who would do that. That is a Great analogy for my situation and how i ended up in my current position. People often do the same (or more or less the same thing) for vastly different reasons. It might not result in a difference that matters most of the time, but it all comes to a head eventually. Over time it leads to outcomes that don't resemble...

2/17/2010

I felt like I was dying for a while on monday. I wonder what I ate that caused that...

The best "name-caller" ever can defeat many legitimate arguments. At some point most people see that sort of thing happen. I do what I can to make sure that the merits of my argument is never overshadowed by that sort of thing...

I saw something very hurtful happened recently. I am no stranger to seeing that sort of thing happen. The nature of what occurred caused me to think: What are the most damaging thing that you can do to someone without actually battering them or doing something that would obviously lead to liability?

People talk about "hearing" or not being able to "hear" people often (I don't mean this in the literal sense). This isn't a new idea: People were talking about this sort of thing before I was old enough for it to matter to me. I have been trying to think of a test for whether a person can "hear" someone or not. This test is still in the beginning phases but: If your "good sense" never/rarely leads you to the same conclusion as someone else then you can't "hear" them. If you can't agree with someone about things that you consider to be a no-brainer, then you can't "hear" them. Sometimes a person can't "hear" someone in regards to a specific issue. Sometimes a person can't "hear" anything that someone ever says. Obviously, if a person has no concept/very little concept of what someone is talking about, they can't "hear" them. It is rare that I have to explain something to someone who has no top-down processing (I don't know if they use this term anymore) about whatever the topic is but they "hear" what I am saying afterward. I can't say that I have never met anyone Cool from MI (Detroit is a part of Michigan), but I can't really "hear" them. After living in Hollywood for an extended period, what I can ever hear is probably limited. I intend to be done with this issue for the rest of eternity after this blog. If anyone ever bothers me about this again, I will send them a link to this blog entry. In the past, I did not care about not being able to "hear" people (thats what diversity is all about, right?), but I am at a point where it matters a bit more in regards to specific things so if I stay in this country at all I won't straying too far from California.

An example of "hearing" difficulties is that I was trying to explain something to someone recently that required a concept of a middle class. There was no middle class where the person was from so they couldn't "hear" me at all. If you have been reading my blog, if you can't "hear" that I am a Heterosexual Man, then you are two far away from me...

People say that I have changed. I think that my circumstances have changed a lot more than I have changed, but one thing that has changed about me is that I cater to the sensibilities of other a lot less. I definitely do not aim to offend anyone but I have sensibilities as everyone else has sensibilities and decided that its equally important that mine are respected.

I am still looking for gainful employment. Its one thing to not be financially well-off but its another thing to continue to be that way. That is clearly inconsistent with everything else about me so I need to figure out how to change that.

2/12/10 Random Thoughts

I tell people that I disdained just about every moment that I was in the state of Michigan every time someone mentions it, yet people still bother me about it. Anyone that I would ever choose to interact with in any depth would drop the issue immediately so I don't know where they are coming from. Those conversations usually end with me saying like "Don't worry about it" or something similar. Apparently, if you set foot on MI soil you will never hear the end of it. People don't seem to know/see the difference between the Sunset Strip/Hollywood and a 2 dive bars that are on the same block if they think that they are "relating" at that level. I am accustomed to the former and not the latter. I am as not open to that experience as possible. Most likely people are mistaking me for someone else to a certain extent (Like a nontrivial percentage of what they remember about me was someone else). One finds himself in situations where he thinks that he talks to the same guy often but its actually three different people who resemble.

An interesting thing about me is that I generally treat people the same across situations. I don't take advantage of the opportunity to treat people worse when situations change or when we are in different settings. Its interesting how many people treat you drastically different (Not in a good way) if you are ever on "their turf."

Recently, I blogged about Bars and clubs that closed. Interestingly, I heard that Miyagi's on the Sunset Strip closed recently. Is that true? At some point, on a given night, that block area had the biggest intersection of different types of people that I have ever seen. It was difficult to get into the restroom because a group of guys were always free-styling in the restroom. I think I began to hang out there a lot less frequently when I found places that were more tailored to what I was looking for. Whether I hang out there or not, it still seems that its supposed to be there. At this rate the Hollywood sign is the next thing to go...

2/9/10

For anyone who wondered, "Anonymous" is still posting outragous comments on my blog. I have yet to approve any of the comments. I am thinking of starting a myspace page to get some support going... Or maybe I could use that new google feature that is supposed to compete with Facebook. You really don't have to post manifestos on my blog...

Everyone loses contact with people who they did not want to lose contact with sometimes. Its natural for these people to try to find and locate whoever they lost contact with. If a person is convinced that the other person would want them to find them, isn't proper etiquette to locate them and contact them immediatelyonce they find them? As far as I know, tracking them indefinitely is a very bad thing under most circumstances...

I was having problems with offensive banner ads. I was trying to figure out how to deal with the problem for a while. I read an article about how software/ viruses that cover the banner ad that is supposed to be on the screen with a different banner ad could be causing the problem. I downloaded a program that blocks the program that replaces the banner ad that is supposed to be there with a different banner ad. AdsCleaner Professional seems to be working thus far...

I was reading an article about an interview with one of the guys from Mili Vanili recently. He was talking about the scandal 20 years agoo and sought to clarify some misinformation about what happened. He didn't say it directly but he seemed to suggest that what happened was less not about them not being able to sing on the albums: It was about the guys who sang not being able to present the proper appearance during performances/ on videos. He suggested that them singing on the album was not their decision. I will take his word for it...

I had an incident where I got sexually harassed by some gay guy while I was at my last position. I am Heterosexual so I was very hostile toward said "contact." Sometimes it really is best to just take "No" for an answer. I decided to report the incident as opposed to resorting to violence. My work was connected to my living arrangements. I ended up having to move out soon after that incident. From my vantage point it seemed that my lack of interest was the reason. The outcome of the reporting of that incident was that "none of the witnesses saw anything" so the guy gets away with it without any reprimand. I guess that thats what street-life is all about. Now I am very aware of who I am left alone with at all times (Not that it necessarily matters, I think that these sorts of things happen because a guy talks about his girlfriend all the time then comes out of the woodworks with an unwanted advance as opposed to being openly gay) and trying to decide what my next move is in regards to that incident. Anyone know a good lawyer? "Anonymous" wasnts to know how I ended up in this situation. This paragraph should give a hint: A long string of incidents of this magnitude in which no one was ever held accountable.

2/6/10

People are organized for a lot of different types of reasons. The reasons for being organized range from admirable reasons to reasons that are a lot less so. Any group that is organized for any reason can be used for just about any reason for which any other group is organized. Thats interesting to think about. It is a continuum and there is a fine line. At what point is a group organized and has crossed the line into being the sort of thing that no organized group would ever claim to be. How many "organizations" or organized groups are not honest with themsleves about what they truly are. I think that there is a kill swich in people's brains that wouldn't allow them to look at a lot of organized groups that way.

I was reading an article about a submarine. The article's was about Virgine Limited Edition introducing a new underwater submarine called the Necker Nymph: Virgin introduces the Necker Nymph. I thought that it must have been a satirical article at first but it was serious. That falls under the umbrella of things that people did "because they felt like it." I guess that, at the end of the day, if you own a submarine you can name it whatever you want to... (I would post a link to these articles but am having difficulties. Shouldn't be difficult to find these articles online)

I was reading an article that said that officials in Vegas found President Obama's verbal attacks on Las Vegas to be problematic/ harmful, that he was not welcome there, and that they would do anything in their power to get him kicked out of Las Vegas if he was ever there. I am often surprised about what can be done legally, but can Las Vegas officals really kick the President of the United States out if he deicded to visit? I would assume thta they couldn't but the article suggests that Vegas officials think that they could...

I was reading another article about Leonard Da Vinci. It said that researcher wanted to explore a theory that the Mona Lisa was somehow a self-portrait of Da Vinci. In order t do so thay wanted to exhume him in order to do a facial reconstruction. I don't usually profile people, but these strike me as the sort of people who truly only thought "We know where he is buried and we have the technology to do the reconstruction." I bet that that is literally the only thing that they took into consideration.

I have blogged about verbal batteries and captive audiences. These situations range from the subtle to the "not-so subtle". The last time that I saw a speaker clearly hit a large audience with a bunch of verbal batteries, half of the audience was standing there with their fists balled by the time that the speaker was done with his speech...

2/3/10

-This past sunday I went for a walk at around 9:00 p.m. Randomly, there was a fireworks show going on near where I was walking. It was impressive enough that I started walking toward the fireworks. After a few blocks of wlaking in that direction it dawned n me that I am no tthe type of person who usually starts walking towards those sorts of things. I remember an incident where a fire brke out on top of a skyscraper that I was near. Everyone in the area who wasn't driving started running toward the building. I was the only person that I saw walking away from the building. I always thought that that was interesting...

Has there ever been a freak accident where someone seriosuly hurt themselves because they were nodding their head too hard. It must happen occasionally...

Recently, I realized that I rely on videogames to keep me up to date about players/ teams capabilities. The ratings that sports-related video games give players is very detailed lately. Players get rated on every aspect of the games from lateral movements to every type of skill level. This results in gameplay that is detailed enough that you should have an advanced understanding of player's tendencies and how teams play if you play an entire season. I definitely like to watch sports on television but I can't possibly watch sports enough to get as much information as I get from a video game...

I haven't chatted with anyone who wasnt already on my friendlist since seven years ago. Bots were not around back then. How long does it take for most people to figure out that they are chatting with a bot as opposed to a real person?

1/27/10

I am thinking of changing the content of what I blog in the near future so I may be starting a new blog soon. If that happens I will post the link to my new blog in one of these blog entries.

I feel that the past few years have been "prime years" of my life that were squandered/wasted in just about every way that I can think of (be it work or play). That is a terrible feeling so I am trying to mitigate damages and have some semblance of the kind of life that I value in the near future.

Recently I found myself on youtube looking at Footage from clubs in Los Angeles that I used to hang out at a few years ago. I wasn't looking at footage from my favorite places in the area either. I am too young to be feeling nostalgic about mediocre times: Most people my age are out creating memories right now as opposed to reminiscing. Thats the world that I live in at the moment, though. Its all about finding footage from the Exact point in time and the exact night f the week when you used to hang out there. A lot of these places don't exist anymore. I don't know whether these clubs weren't making enough money to stay open or whether "times/ what people were looking for" changed enough that they decided that it was a good idea to close the venue. Whatever the reason, no matter what happens in my life I will never have those exact times again... Interesting to think about.

People really are creative in trying to get past CLEAR NO's in my universe a lot these days. This is a Very long story that would be worthy of its own blog entry. I think people would call in a shrink to try to get a diagnosis that nullfies someone's Clear Intentions of a lack of wanting to associate with them. I have no idea whether the "They couldn't possibly mean that!!" argument could work...

Wow...

I have decided to make changes to my settings. Anyone who wants to post a comment is going to have to get past the "censor:" "sal undy" or otherwise... If its truly all about me seeing your comment, whether I post it or not is not important.

At this point, the only true remedy to my problem is the sort of Financial freedom that allows one to have some control over who/what he encounters on a daily basis and having my rights enforced. There is clearly an agenda involved in saying anything very different than that. Anything else either has nothing to do with my circumstance or is a step in the wrong direction. I have rarely had much of a "choice" since 2005. Whenever I have been in California since 2005, I chose to be there. I didn't mind that I was in Florida for a while. Aside from that I haven't chose to be wherever I was since 2005. I am as against that sort of thing as possible.

I have wrote about many problems that I have had: many of which involve Felonies being committed against me. Supposedly we are not supposed to resort to vigilante means/ self-help in dealing with these situations, but someone has to live up to their end of the bargain to make that plausible.

There have been torrential downpours in the Los Angeles during the last couple of days. Hopefully the weather improves soon...

People often talk about how they have been through struggles as well if someone complains about their circumstance. I guess that there are 2 ways that a person can go with that 1) The person is trying to empathize by saying that they have been through struggles as well, 2) They are disregarding the complaint/gripe. In regards to the latter case, I believe that people have legitimate gripes regardless of what has happened to others. There is definitely the extreme case where someone is being annoying by griping about something trivial. Other than that case, I don't "have" people who don't respect other people's complaints because others have been through terrible times.

Finally, I have never heard anyone refer to themselves as an intellectual then make fun of a homeless person in in the same paragragh...That is novel...

1/15/10

Pau Gasol shoots an unheard of field goal percentage for someone who shoots jumpers and or shoots often. People play in the post, only dunk, and don't shoot that high of a percentage. I don't know whether commentators talk about that a lot: After a while, I tend to be more focused on watching the game than listening to the commentators...

They should have Topher Grace who played the role of "Venom" in the last spiderman movie play the role of Spiderman in the next movie if they are looking for someone to replace Toby Maguire and not miss a beat. I remember having a conversation with someone once about how they could try out for a lot of the same roles.

Its always interesting when celebrities don't get away with something because celebrities are often given so much more flexibility/leniency. I bet that just about any known celebrity could walk into just about any business and that business would let that Celebrity work at the cash register for the day just for the heck of it. The manager would say, "OMG..its '____'!" Now they are at the cash register. If they have a camera crew with them its that much more likely. The implications of that are interesting to think about.

I havent chatted online with anyone who wasnt already on my friendlist since 2003. I decided to check out a chatroom for Nostalgia's sake a couple of days ago. There is no rhyme or reason to what chatrooms are labeled and who is in them: Apparently no one from any city is in their own chatroom...

Everyone has been prejudiced by something and had it affect their judgment/ perception. I guess the normal level of that is when someone wears a jacket as opposed to a heavier coat because someone told them that it was going to be 10 degrees warmer outside than it actually was. I guess that perceiving it to be a bit hotter than it actually is normal. The thing that I find interesting is when people are so prejudiced that they dont perceive what is happening in front of them AT ALL. I try to avoid that level.

1/13/10

Considering what has happened to me over the past few years (much of which I have blogged about), I am not particularly fond of outlandish criticisms among other things. I have blogged about accounts being hacked, homelessness, a lack of cooperation from authorities, and fraud amongst other things. I have difficulty respecting anyone who is not only failing to help but piling onto the problems...

Exactly what is a "Twitter." It doesn't sound like anything that I would want to be a part of but a name can be very misleading. It seems like a popular website. Since Facebook and Myspace have been around for a while is that the next big thing?

A while ago I blogged about the fact that I don't add people who I haven't met based on the "Looks like winner" theory anymore. I am not an active member of myspace anymore (I have an account but no one is added). Back when I was a member I received a friend request from some guy. In his "about me" section it said something like, "The Indusstry is f***ed up so I started this website to get some support for the cause. He had thousands of friends added and in the comments section everyone said something like, "I like what you are doing. Thanks for adding me."I wasnt sure if i had ever met that guy so I didn't add him (who knows whose account that was) but I am assuming that thousands of people added him because the page "looked like a winner" to them. Interesting to think about.

It seems that I get rounded up to the bottom of the next highest category often. I haven't decided whether that is a good thing or a bad thing. I am rarely at the top of the food chain of whatever circumstance I am in long enough to enjoy it. I guess that one positive thing about it is that there is always incentive to "come up" until I Truly reach the top.

If what they are saying at this point is accurate...The earthquake in Haiti sounds like the worst Disaster of my lifetime...

Interesting

-I probably would write what i was doing at Angel Stadium but its too close to giving contact information. It would definitely be a good thing for certain people to know how to get in contact with me but definitely not whoever posted those 2 comments asking me about what I did at Angel Stadium. The last time that a bunch of people like whoever posted those 2 comment had my contact information it ended Disasterously.

-In any event, I am still looking for employment. I continue to put in application after application but no success...

-Most people who are "needed" at a job get payed top-dollar for doing what ever they do. At this rate, I am convinced that if i was ever "Needed" i would be drastically underpaid or something in that ballpark...

-Recently I had an interview at some type of staffing agency. The woman who interviewed me didnt believe my resume. Seemed like an uphill battle. That is somewhere in the ballpark of "Never..."

-No...I will Never be back in the state of MI again (No, Detroit is not the exception, I won't be in Detroit again either). I would rather have multiple root canals done on the same day (And I dont like Root canals). I am one of the most difficult people to upset but if I ever had to be located in MI again that would probably enrage me.

-On a brigher note...This webpage always makes me feel a bit better when some website is aggravting me. If it were slightly more complex... http://bored.com/destroysites/

Heppy New Years

I have blogged about a lot of problems that I have had over the past few years. I have come to the conclusion that the key to figuring out who the source of my problems is a combination of researching paper trails and running background checks on people who i dealt with in the past. I am pretty sure that things will become very clear at that point.


Lately I have been using the yahoo search engine more than google. For some reason it gives me more accurate results...


Recently i have been stating the obvious a lot more than usual. People make fun of you if you do that but sometimes that is best commentary that you can possibly give. Like "Someone is hanging out in the dorm naked, they showered a half hour ago but they are just hanging out and having lengthy conversations with people with no clothes on..." If that happens at your dorm...those are obvious comments, but what more can you possibly say about it?


Homeless status is a good thing to avoid. There are some barriers to getting yourself out of that situation if you ever find yourself in it. Very often, It's more complicated than "I am going to put in an application an get out of this situation. Apparently you learn something very valuable if you successfully navigate your way out of that situation: Successfully navigating your way out of the situation isn't promised though...


I give people the "thumbs up" often. Lately I have been trying use the "thumbs up" less often. "Thumbs up" always makes me think of people getting carried off of the playing field after a Severe injury...


Everyone loses contact with people in life. It is a combination of people who a person is happy to lose contact with and people who a person didnt want to lose contact with. I lose contact with people who i didnt want to lose contact with because of a mixture of the fact that I stopped memorizing phone numbers years ago and the fact that I encountered a lot of my friends so often that I didn't have a need to get their phone numbers in the past. If you see someone 6 times a week when you are out and about you might not see a point to getting their number...